Just leave

Bitches bitches bitches.
They fucked up ppl's life.
You want peace. I give it to you. take it and leave me alone!
I love you that's why I choose to let go now.
You want freedom? You have it now.
You said you'll feel pressure?
Bull.
Everything's changed now. It's always you that said everything. That makes every decision.
I hate you

Whatever now.
Just leave now.
I wished everything was back to how it was back then.
Everything was a lie.
Coming back was a lie.
I would've known that.
It was a mistake. Coming back here. And having faith.
It's the same freaking tears that makes me think of you.
I came back a changed person. Hoping we could work out better.
We can be together again.
But it's just a total bull.
You .
You
Hurt
Me
Again.
But I still love you.

I just hate you. Leave me. Just leave. I just wish.
How I wish that it's only a dream. You and everything.

Bored out

I'm working.
Drop dead cuz too much pressure
Ugh.

We were talking and laughing
And i felt lonely a sec there. cuz i'm all alone.
She's a good fren of mine from my office just so you know. lol.

Life suck but you can't just sulk it all you want!
Grrr. be tough. just a few more days to go!! :D

Blah Blah Blah

Its just 10 more days and I'm freee!!
: D can't wait to go back to my hometown.
Misses my family way too much. And, especially Her. : )

Life kinda hectic but just 10 more days to go and that's dat.
Sigh. still need to make a decision though. Hate it right here.
But have to be here... ugh

I'm just a heart breaker
:D

Jean

Its over. No?

Did I stop or did i not? 

I do not have any idea. (seriously) 

Life's fun. Enjoy it 

Forgive than forget. 

Its way too true. 

Life's awesome if you just live with it. 

But never stop trying. Or that's what I believe. 

I love you. 

I want you. 

But i'm too young. lol 

watching her with full of different expressions on such tiny face, 

it just tickles my heart. 

She played with me. She responds when I talk to her

and most importantly, She smiles to me. 

Her smile. It's not some words that can describe. cute? no. funny? no. its sweet. but its too sweet. 

seeing those perfect eyes, those little hands and toes. Anything just don't matters to me anymore 

As long as she's with me, that's all I need. 

I wonder how such innocent creature can be born. 

such innocent face. but such evil thoughts can just take her away from me. 

Even though she's not mine. But she's all that matters to me now. 

I hope she just stay with me this way. 

I'm a changed person now. 

I think better now. Not with emotions already 

I'm more matured now.

Am I stopping or not? I don't know 

But I don't want to. 

Cuz you're too amazing to me. 

I choose not to give up cuz i don't want to. 

But, I'm Sorry. I can't be perfect. 

"Nothing is really over until you stop trying"


Jean

Realization

I realized that its hard finding someone and to be with someone who you truly love
I realized that there's no other person that I can trust.
I realized that I've changed.
And finally, I realized I lost that one person who I love the most.
We got separated.
It took one special kiss, one special day, and one special moment to make everything possible.
I lost all that.
And finally, I realized I already gave up my life, gave up hope that one day I will find one true love again.

Sometimes it just takes forever to find that one tru love.
Jeanice

I don't like this life

Grrrr. I feel so empty and alone!
Don't like this feeling.
I've changed.
Cold-blooded, anti social, a loner, and remembering not being so talkative anymore.
It's not who I was but who I am now.
I'm still wondering what's happening to me.
Being so emo and all.
Couldn't find anything that amuses me. : (
Don't understand myself no more.
I wonder, am i who i am now?

I'm lost.
Guide me.

Jean

Work work work

its saturday and I'm working = =
I'm soooo dead.
Working under such pressure and loosing my appetite
Its just terrible.
Been through a lot.
And I guess its time for me to just do the right thing now
Cuz i'm not suppose to be this sensitive.
Everything's seem so wrong.
I lost just about everything.
Nevermind now,
Its just too late to regret now.
What's needed to be done has already been done
Move on, and never try to hang on tight to somthing you don't wana lose.
cuz in the end, it won't be there anymore.




I really do want to know what love is. : )

Jean