Realization

I realized that its hard finding someone and to be with someone who you truly love
I realized that there's no other person that I can trust.
I realized that I've changed.
And finally, I realized I lost that one person who I love the most.
We got separated.
It took one special kiss, one special day, and one special moment to make everything possible.
I lost all that.
And finally, I realized I already gave up my life, gave up hope that one day I will find one true love again.

Sometimes it just takes forever to find that one tru love.
Jeanice

I don't like this life

Grrrr. I feel so empty and alone!
Don't like this feeling.
I've changed.
Cold-blooded, anti social, a loner, and remembering not being so talkative anymore.
It's not who I was but who I am now.
I'm still wondering what's happening to me.
Being so emo and all.
Couldn't find anything that amuses me. : (
Don't understand myself no more.
I wonder, am i who i am now?

I'm lost.
Guide me.

Jean

Work work work

its saturday and I'm working = =
I'm soooo dead.
Working under such pressure and loosing my appetite
Its just terrible.
Been through a lot.
And I guess its time for me to just do the right thing now
Cuz i'm not suppose to be this sensitive.
Everything's seem so wrong.
I lost just about everything.
Nevermind now,
Its just too late to regret now.
What's needed to be done has already been done
Move on, and never try to hang on tight to somthing you don't wana lose.
cuz in the end, it won't be there anymore.




I really do want to know what love is. : )

Jean

cute-ness

Keep looking at this picture.
makes me smile cuz its wayyyy too cute.
I wish i can get one of this. : D

just a random post  : D

F*cked Up Life

Wasn't what I expected.
It happened too fast.
Monday blues. But i feel like it's still that day. 25/9/2010.
I was stone.
Rage, madness. hah. wat a joke in my life.
A screwed up life it was. no, it still is.
I'm all alone now. I thought i would be okay. because i can be heartless at times.
but it wasn't this time. ugh.
gonna get stone ! ahhahaha. ugh. going outta my mind.

Panda and bears. growl. the fight its over.
hm. i thought of the stuff u said.
hm.. will not leave me no matter when. hmm... it was hard on me.
it was a lie too. ugh.
lies are ugly. truths are even uglier.
watery eyes please go away.
cuz i just wana forget wat happened den it'll be easier for me.

live ur life to the fullest . *pfft bullshit.
in other words, that means, screw up ur life whenevr u feel like u want to. LOL

A NOT-SO-WONDERFULL-LIFE-AFTERALL

hectic life it was for the past one and a half month.
so caught up with work.
the upcoming event precisely.

caught up with some things as well.
thought it went well.
but I was wrong.
its still not okay.
it won't be okay i guess.

jeez. feel so lonely right now.
so empty and so alone.
laughing to myself, thinking how foolish i am.

wanted to just screw up my life
but i will regret it. Oneday. and i know that.

that feeling, belonged to, someone to cuddle with.
I miss that.

Fate

Blank Blank Blank

I have no idea what to write anymore.
He seems to be fine without me.
Like he used to and like he is now

sigh....
Can anyone just tell me how do i fix a super broken relationship instead of just walking away?
Why does it have to be so tough?


To love one’s fate means to fully affirm one’s life. 


 "Did you ever say yes to a pleasure? Oh my friends, then you have also said yes to all pain. All things are linked, entwined, in love with one another."

--Nietzsche