TILL DEATH DO US PART

wat am i right now? i dont even know

who am i ? there's no one to tell me that

what've i done? i keep wondering

i've changed... worst... could there be anyone out there to tell me? i'm turning into a beast. a whole new person that i don't even who am i anymore. what have i done? there's just no words to describe how i feel. i don't know who am i anymore....

everything seems possible back den... i wished.. i hoped... one day we could just go back der, it feels better that way. it feels real... i was happy...

The scribbled diary which is full with so many wonderful memories, the unwritten pages left which i can't wait to fill in... it was all those laughs i missed, those moments, the tiniest gestures that i won't missed out. it amuses me... i used to be so afraid, so i hold on.... tightly. but they flee anyways. I know, i just know they will come back. they certainly will, only the right moment. i want to stay, stay just this way... oh, how wonderful it wil be.

the pages now are all messed up now. words are unclear, pages had been crippled up, pages are tored, blot out sentences. but i saw drips of tears. they were all left behind. that's all i see now. how i wished that the pages are still scented with memories, written with beautiful moments. it was all i wanted. it was the best days of my life

perfection turned their back on us. or we just messed it up? i learn each day will pass, heartache will be mended. its just a matter of time. but how long will it take? i have no idea. i'll wait. i'l wait for that day to come. it will be alrite den. and that's the day we'll be waiting for... or it'll be just only me?

when i hold you. it was love... it was perfect. my valentine.

LOVE

"No one falls in love by choice, it’s by chance.

No one stays in love by chance, it’s by effort.

No one falls out of love by chance, it’s by choice."

CRUSHED

its how amazing people could tell their lies without feeling any guilt....

sometimes, when you pour your heart out, it's just not enough.

people changes, people lies and people, they just don't care....

hopes pull you down, courage? the courage to face everything by yourself, its hard. be tough...

the people who are right beside u could eat your heart up. the one you trusted the most are the one who you have to fear the most....

unexpected...

undeniable ...

crushed...

it was all bout having faith in yourself... hold on tight... things might get better.. u r the one who determines your own faith. the actions, the words you choose. it's all in you

hold on tight... have faith in yourself.

Jeanice

MOIS NIGHT

went there yesterday nite, was pissed off at the beginning but after that, all was fine, had tons of fun!! i brought camera, but the person who's holding my camera went missing, so i can't take pics with all my friends!! grrrr. manage to just snap these 2. lol

IT NEVER ENDS

the past 3 days was fun, had sleepover, things went out of hand... double lmao, it was one of the most unforgettable 3 days we had together, glad i made it and glad that we were together.

1st day wasn't much and so... there's not much freakin pics!! we turned bored so, tada!

look lyk some puffer fish face xD

we didn't even asked each other to post what kind of expression! natural telepathy, awww

luv dis the best!

2nd day was fun, went to the beach and celebrated her belated birthday by bbq-ing

had this only!! (not reli xD, nt on diet whenever it comes to bbq!)

3rd day, checked out, lunch, and teso. having lots of fun in tesco, kerang-ish and people freakin thought that he was actually scolding me and i was actually turn out to be a mentally-retarded-fuck-person! but of cuz, we were fooling around and he bought me sushies!! nom - nom

end of the 3 days.

wish that some things were able to avoid or just even be blind about it, all i could express is that i'm sorry

loops

hm... having apartment's day and nite-out. lol hope it'll be fun!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

read bout anything that you have on your wall. wanted to write there and wishes you so badly but something stops me. it brings me to the day which makes you and myself feel so guilty till today. i know everything's changed. i know what your friends will see in me, but not the true me, and you know that. i know you what you will choose. i know...i just happen to know. but it breaks my heart. how could a strong friendship could just feel apart just like that?

i dont get it... make me. i wanted us to go back the way we used to so badly. i wanted you to talk to me the way you used to. i wanted us to talk the way we used to. i wanted us to joke around again. but its just different now isn't it? i wish i wasn't there. i wanted to celebrat this very day with you. we were planning for so long, together. it was so important to me. i was anxious, but it turned out all too wrong, way tooo wrong. i wish i could just turn back time. i wish... i wish... i wish... laughing silently to myself. if you could predict whatever's coming your way. you wouldn't even say you wish now. i couldn't agree more. silly me.

happy brithday, kev. may all your wishes come true.
love always,
janice