X Mas !

Peeps!! Merry X Mas! Have a super duper wonderful one! 

Was wondering where to celebrate my xmas eve this year. 

But I don't even really care anymore cuz I don't wana plan. And the best part is, I don't have to! :D

Oh yes, xmas it is! 

Thank you Santa! 

Love, 

Jeanice   xoxo 

14.12.2010

Went out for the whole day with my love one.
Had a long chat. I missed her.
I did something brave. at least that's what I think
He never wanted to be with me.
He never will be sure of what he wants.
And he never will be with me.

I walked up to him and told him to move on now.
Hade a hard time to do so.
But I felt like I've done what is suppose to be done in order for me to move on now.
I'm happy. or at least, that's what I want to think as well.
No matter how much I wan him back in my life,
He'll never be back. Returning the revenge . what a joke.

Last night, I did something really really bad as well.
I texted him, saying all those mean stuff. Wow, that used to be soo me.
But after each text, my heart felt heavier and heavier.
I pushed him away, for his own good.
Yes, He'll be able to move on perfectly fine now.
with me having me to hate for.
I guess it's right that when u love someone so much, U just hope he'll be much happy off without u.
It's such a long way to go now.
Oh, and I missed him. a lot
I cried secretly last nite, staying up the whole night, thinking whether what I did was right.
yes, it was alright. and it was right. at least he still thinks that I haven't change.

celebrating all these holidays alone, and without him will be hell.
But I'll be fine, Cuz I know he'll be. And I'm happy to know that.
My heart feels so heavy now.
It's just another long journey to go now.
Starting a whole new journey on me own.

And how I wish he still reads my blog, to understand that what I've done is actually for him
Just putting all those salt on his wound hurts me much more than him cuz its me,
I'm doing that. to hurt him more.
But how I wish he understands that I want him to have a perfect life without me.
I was no good. I was a bitch. But not one anymore.
I just hope no matter what, he can find it in his heart to forgive me.
mayb not, then he'll nt be fine.

All the best my love one.

I love you and I really do.
No matter how I tried to prove to you,
You;ll be blinded with the wrong doings I've done to you,
You'll never c the good in me anymore.

the pendent mean so much more to me. but it's best to let u think that it doesnt mean anything to me anymore.
It's not tangible that counts. it's what the intangible counts. The Memories.
The journey.
And of course, The love we had. *smiles.

Move on now, both of us shall do so. Every human should do so.
Sincerely from my heart, this will be the last time I write this.

I Love You, Baby Boo

Jeanice

Mr Cuddly

peek-a-boo! I'm just happy : D

I miss u sooo much Mr cudly!! finally! you've come back!! its reli nice seeing u again ! :D
Feeling a lil bit love! heeeeeeeeeee. just too excited. lol
Finally got to c u! its been so long lyk bout 2 years already?! hehe.
Cuddly - cuddle.
It rhymes doesn't it? oh wells, my life is full of chocolates and pamper-ness. :D
I c u again soon! I Hope! :D
oh, and have a safe journey !

luv,
Jeanice

Memories

Reminiscence. 

Hold on to every single thing that's beautiful. 

appreciate every single moment that you're with. 

cuz when it's gone. you'll missed it real bad. 

no matter how i try, all i know is that there'll nvr be an ans for me. 

it was all good. but all the lies and faith that made it all wrong. 

i need strength to go on. but i'm lost. 

i'm giving up this time. i know there wont be any more reasons to be here. 

I missed home. But I missed being with u. 

U were my soul mate. I felt so empty. it;s silently killing me. 

I Love U. 

I was always tough. But not this time. Not anymore. 

Human i am too. 

But why erasing part of our memories has been so hard to do so? 

My love died. I died on that November. 

I will not stand in your way now. 

Be happy. 

Taking those bumpy journey was one of the greatest thing I had. 

Holding hands side by side, I felt warm. I missed it. 

And Im still crazily in love with u. 

It's only a matter of time? No. 

Its just been always reminiscence. 

Been listening to all those songs we loved, we talked about. 

oh my, tears it is again.  I hope it never comes back again. 

Jean.

Genting!

It's because of Genting, I got a flu now. 

Lyk immediate flu. 

The wind is so cold and strong and cold and strong that i fell sick immediately!! 

Imagine that! Lol 

But I love the trip anyway. 

It was them that made it awesome and I miss u guys sooo much!

Can't wait for the next trip to Bali! wheeee

It was because all those bored and stress moment that we planned to go to Genting. 

One afternoon we just planned and told each other this

"Hey, let's go Genting this weekend!"

"oh, yes! Let's"

And that's how we got this trip.

oh and forgot to mention that there were actually 2 couples that proposed for the girl's hand in marriage! awww, how sweet! one in theme park and one is in starbucks! 

wish them happily ever after! 

and hm... i know im too young to think bout this, but, wonder when I will get married? :D

This picture I'll never forget!
It was soooo crowded with ppl that we have to queue for long hours!!
and when it was our turn, it rained!!! and everything stopped!
How annoying could that be ?!

there's a lot more ugly pictures though. but... yeah : D

Jean

Pssts

Spending my time in blogs now, looking through, reading every singe posts i've posted. 

Hate to be jobless, but its nice on the other hand to help her go thru her young days :D 

I love you. 

Degree now. decisions again. I hate it when it comes to which universities I have to choose. 

But i've made up my mind and hopefully, just hopefully, I'll get to that particular university :D 

Doing nothing now. bored out of my mind. jeez. 

Oh, working thru my days with workouts! yeap! i finally did it. haha 

just in case you're wondering why "finally', cuz its becuz i've been saying it over and over again about 

working out and going to work out classes like what? 3 years back? and i was so freakin lazy. so "finally"! lol 

working on my make up skills now. they suck. ew. 

I'm gonna fly to cities now! :D 

C ya. 

toodles 

Jeanice 

September 28

My life is so messed up right now.
I don't wana get the hang of this.
But I have to.
Lost my best friend and friends that I thought they were real.
Trust wasn't should be in my dictionary. neither should hope be.
It's too vague that I can't even understand.

I will, sometime, to pull this through.
Pray hard.
My life is so full of drama which I can't even handle anymore.
Life, is too vague.
You're too good to be true. I would've know that.
Stay strong. And be strong. That's all it matters now.

Jean