Can't Stop Smiling

I just can't stop smiling.
Celebrating the new year with u,
Seeing you tonight.
hellooo mister. : D
Looking forward to see you.
I know it's wrong in any other sense u may think of.
But no, I don't give a damn bout a thing and all I care bout, is you mister!
Been smiling the whole day now. But it's torturing me as well!
having to wait for 9 more hours?! are u kidding me?!
still, I'm just happy. : D

Luv, Luv, Luv,

Jean. always <3

Never told you

I don't feel the celebration.
without you by my side this year make it worse.
But I'm still happy cuz I will get to see you.
Get to spend the celebration with you at least one day.
A lot of our memories pass by.

And I realised, your hands are the only one that I wana lock with forever.
Taken by your hand and leading me is all I wanted.
I will never leave you. My heart will always be with you.

I pulled back when I was with him. It wasn't supposed to be like this.
Then, I realised again that I'm just using him to get over you.
I never wish that you wasn't here.
But I am just glad that You came into my life
And giving me so much wonderful memories.

I've ended it. I hope. How I hope. You would give us one last chance being together.
Cuz without you. everything is just not right.
I never told you what I should've said.
I miss your face when we were sleeping together.
I miss how you stare at me while its just only you and me.
I miss how you hold my hand and kiss my lips.
I miss how we locked our lips together.
I miss looking at how u sleep.
I was wrong. I've been waiting and still waiting for you to come back. It;s just another stranger with me. what I need wasnt him at all. What I need all along, It's just you and you.

One more chance is what I need.
I realised again that the arguements does not matters at all.
It's what we've been through. those sweet memories.
I love you, my dear baby boo.
I miss calling you that as I laughed to myself.
I never keep anything that you gave me.
But I bring it along with me whenever I go.
The one and only necklace that means so much to me, to u and to us.
I love you soo much that whenever I'm trying so hard to forget bout u, it made me tears.
Love isn't about all the wrong doings but isn't it about the journey we're  taking on?

I miss us.
and I love you.

Colbie Calliat - I Never Told You

I just hope this one miracle will come true.

Two is better than One

I miss YOU .
Yes , you.
My everything
My love
and My one and only Baby Boo.

I feel lonely. I'm missing myself.
and I miss you.

Taylor Swift - Two Is Better Than One

Luv,
Jean

Kayy Elll Trip

Beer Factory and Movida in Giza Mall
It was whacked! lol... tons of pictures though.
It was Steph's birthday had all mixtures of alcohol = =
But love it cuz it was crazy and Serene is totally out of her mind!! LOL 
But couldn't upload it as it was too ridiculous :P
But it was also that nite that almost took my life away.
Got into a major accident and then got into an ambulans
again, got into the ER and got injections = = .
But I was lucky cuz the airbag and the seat belt saved me!
so, people!! put on ur seatbelts when ur in the car! it does saves lives !
Couldn't able to walk and move around much though.
But yeah, Movida and beer factory was whacked! woots! <3

Electro is love

Been listening to electro, house and trance.
Been liking it for a long time now.
<3 <3 <3  :D

Been thinking a lot lately as well.
Noticed that something has been missing.
Something just wrong.
Mayb I'm just trying to stand up and face te world myself.
Do I need him, no, I don't. I'm confused.
ugh. I hate u. I just need time to figure it out whether I reli like you or not. 
It's nice of you to come into my life.
But I don't think anyone right now.

Need? naw... don't need u.
we've known each other just a month. and yea, dont think so.
I neeeeed time to figure it out this stupid relationship!!!

Jean

F.D

Faber Drive - Tongue Tied 

I'm soo in love with this song.

Its romantic in a way.

That's what usually happens.

I've been listening to this for the past one week . lol

Loving the mv as well.

Try listening, u might love it. :D

Jean

I am lost

Oh my god !
Oh my god!!
Oh my god!!
I am sooo freaking lost that I have no idea where to celebrate tomoro and who i'm gonna celebrate with !
Pathetic... tsk tsk tsk.

Just a random stupid post :P

Jean

Colours

Beneath all that dull-ness, there's always colours that is hidden. Colours that shows your emotions and feelings.
I miss you.
I miss all the happiness.

Just bored out of my mind.
Couldn't sleep this past few weeks.
Insomnia . lol .
Super duper dark panda eyes.
Just a short post.
A mixed feeling is all I have. I wish I could just turn back time. Erase all those silly stuffs.
But oh, silly me. Even thinking bout that.
I hope you're happy somewhere there. I hope to see you again.

FML
Lifeless.

FML FML FML

Jean

A new chapter

Look, isn't she adorable?!
I love her so much. the most charming smile u can ever imgine!!
Today spent my day at home, cuz I've been hanging out the whole 2 weeks till late nite
and my mum din even screw me until yesterday. lol
Nothing much to update though.
Hm... oh, one thing. I don't get why ppl can just keep shoving me around and saying things that are totally none of my business!
People gossips, not only me.
And yes, if u shove me hard enough, You'll lose the battle.
But I'm done with anything that has gota do with u.
I wan u to be out of my life totally and of cuz, I wouldn't do anything that would remind me of u!
How senseless they could be sometimes.
I'm sory with all the angry post but I just dont wana talk bout him to my frens.

I am fragile but yes, I've gotten stronger bits by bits.
I don't do stupid stuff now, I've got my head back LOL.
Of cuz, explanations are no need to be done as well. Not anymore. :D
And yes, I learned this from a beloved one

" If you want the last word in an argument, say, "You're right."


so true right? lol.
I don't loose my temper so easily now. 
Cuz there's nothing more worth it to be mad at. 
And absolutely nothing to argue about! 
If you want someone to be out of your life, ignore him or her! and DO NOT do anything that reminds u of him /her! 
Just a reminder to ppl who had or having difficulties in their relationship 
He taught me the morals, some use full ones I should say .

Thoughts. Yes. They are needed to be considered. hm.. I wonder how I should choose?
God, Please answer me, Cuz I really don't know how to choose.

Going back to studies now. Grrr.

Love,
Jean

X Mas !

Its just another nothing-to-do post.
was happy cuz I receive an amazing gift. nt reli dat amazing.
But it just feels like wat I wanted to get, x mas got it for me! :D
Rose! I love it! hehe. although x mas eve suck but it went alrite the next day! :D
I'm happy. hm... but did I make a right choice I still wonder.
and oh, I gained 3 kg! OH EM GEE!
I'm stil thinking. ugh. thinking thinking thinking. = =
Screw it! I'll be better :D
I love blueberry muffins!
great to know soo many ppl especially.
oh, will update this post with pictures later . tee hee. :P

Thank u for the great x mas santa!
Thanks a bunch huns! xoxo <3
U guys made the x mas this year special!

Jean

X Mas !

Peeps!! Merry X Mas! Have a super duper wonderful one! 

Was wondering where to celebrate my xmas eve this year. 

But I don't even really care anymore cuz I don't wana plan. And the best part is, I don't have to! :D

Oh yes, xmas it is! 

Thank you Santa! 

Love, 

Jeanice   xoxo 

14.12.2010

Went out for the whole day with my love one.
Had a long chat. I missed her.
I did something brave. at least that's what I think
He never wanted to be with me.
He never will be sure of what he wants.
And he never will be with me.

I walked up to him and told him to move on now.
Hade a hard time to do so.
But I felt like I've done what is suppose to be done in order for me to move on now.
I'm happy. or at least, that's what I want to think as well.
No matter how much I wan him back in my life,
He'll never be back. Returning the revenge . what a joke.

Last night, I did something really really bad as well.
I texted him, saying all those mean stuff. Wow, that used to be soo me.
But after each text, my heart felt heavier and heavier.
I pushed him away, for his own good.
Yes, He'll be able to move on perfectly fine now.
with me having me to hate for.
I guess it's right that when u love someone so much, U just hope he'll be much happy off without u.
It's such a long way to go now.
Oh, and I missed him. a lot
I cried secretly last nite, staying up the whole night, thinking whether what I did was right.
yes, it was alright. and it was right. at least he still thinks that I haven't change.

celebrating all these holidays alone, and without him will be hell.
But I'll be fine, Cuz I know he'll be. And I'm happy to know that.
My heart feels so heavy now.
It's just another long journey to go now.
Starting a whole new journey on me own.

And how I wish he still reads my blog, to understand that what I've done is actually for him
Just putting all those salt on his wound hurts me much more than him cuz its me,
I'm doing that. to hurt him more.
But how I wish he understands that I want him to have a perfect life without me.
I was no good. I was a bitch. But not one anymore.
I just hope no matter what, he can find it in his heart to forgive me.
mayb not, then he'll nt be fine.

All the best my love one.

I love you and I really do.
No matter how I tried to prove to you,
You;ll be blinded with the wrong doings I've done to you,
You'll never c the good in me anymore.

the pendent mean so much more to me. but it's best to let u think that it doesnt mean anything to me anymore.
It's not tangible that counts. it's what the intangible counts. The Memories.
The journey.
And of course, The love we had. *smiles.

Move on now, both of us shall do so. Every human should do so.
Sincerely from my heart, this will be the last time I write this.

I Love You, Baby Boo

Jeanice

Mr Cuddly

peek-a-boo! I'm just happy : D

I miss u sooo much Mr cudly!! finally! you've come back!! its reli nice seeing u again ! :D
Feeling a lil bit love! heeeeeeeeeee. just too excited. lol
Finally got to c u! its been so long lyk bout 2 years already?! hehe.
Cuddly - cuddle.
It rhymes doesn't it? oh wells, my life is full of chocolates and pamper-ness. :D
I c u again soon! I Hope! :D
oh, and have a safe journey !

luv,
Jeanice

Memories

Reminiscence. 

Hold on to every single thing that's beautiful. 

appreciate every single moment that you're with. 

cuz when it's gone. you'll missed it real bad. 

no matter how i try, all i know is that there'll nvr be an ans for me. 

it was all good. but all the lies and faith that made it all wrong. 

i need strength to go on. but i'm lost. 

i'm giving up this time. i know there wont be any more reasons to be here. 

I missed home. But I missed being with u. 

U were my soul mate. I felt so empty. it;s silently killing me. 

I Love U. 

I was always tough. But not this time. Not anymore. 

Human i am too. 

But why erasing part of our memories has been so hard to do so? 

My love died. I died on that November. 

I will not stand in your way now. 

Be happy. 

Taking those bumpy journey was one of the greatest thing I had. 

Holding hands side by side, I felt warm. I missed it. 

And Im still crazily in love with u. 

It's only a matter of time? No. 

Its just been always reminiscence. 

Been listening to all those songs we loved, we talked about. 

oh my, tears it is again.  I hope it never comes back again. 

Jean.

Genting!

It's because of Genting, I got a flu now. 

Lyk immediate flu. 

The wind is so cold and strong and cold and strong that i fell sick immediately!! 

Imagine that! Lol 

But I love the trip anyway. 

It was them that made it awesome and I miss u guys sooo much!

Can't wait for the next trip to Bali! wheeee

It was because all those bored and stress moment that we planned to go to Genting. 

One afternoon we just planned and told each other this

"Hey, let's go Genting this weekend!"

"oh, yes! Let's"

And that's how we got this trip.

oh and forgot to mention that there were actually 2 couples that proposed for the girl's hand in marriage! awww, how sweet! one in theme park and one is in starbucks! 

wish them happily ever after! 

and hm... i know im too young to think bout this, but, wonder when I will get married? :D

This picture I'll never forget!
It was soooo crowded with ppl that we have to queue for long hours!!
and when it was our turn, it rained!!! and everything stopped!
How annoying could that be ?!

there's a lot more ugly pictures though. but... yeah : D

Jean

Pssts

Spending my time in blogs now, looking through, reading every singe posts i've posted. 

Hate to be jobless, but its nice on the other hand to help her go thru her young days :D 

I love you. 

Degree now. decisions again. I hate it when it comes to which universities I have to choose. 

But i've made up my mind and hopefully, just hopefully, I'll get to that particular university :D 

Doing nothing now. bored out of my mind. jeez. 

Oh, working thru my days with workouts! yeap! i finally did it. haha 

just in case you're wondering why "finally', cuz its becuz i've been saying it over and over again about 

working out and going to work out classes like what? 3 years back? and i was so freakin lazy. so "finally"! lol 

working on my make up skills now. they suck. ew. 

I'm gonna fly to cities now! :D 

C ya. 

toodles 

Jeanice 

September 28

My life is so messed up right now.
I don't wana get the hang of this.
But I have to.
Lost my best friend and friends that I thought they were real.
Trust wasn't should be in my dictionary. neither should hope be.
It's too vague that I can't even understand.

I will, sometime, to pull this through.
Pray hard.
My life is so full of drama which I can't even handle anymore.
Life, is too vague.
You're too good to be true. I would've know that.
Stay strong. And be strong. That's all it matters now.

Jean

Just leave

Bitches bitches bitches.
They fucked up ppl's life.
You want peace. I give it to you. take it and leave me alone!
I love you that's why I choose to let go now.
You want freedom? You have it now.
You said you'll feel pressure?
Bull.
Everything's changed now. It's always you that said everything. That makes every decision.
I hate you

Whatever now.
Just leave now.
I wished everything was back to how it was back then.
Everything was a lie.
Coming back was a lie.
I would've known that.
It was a mistake. Coming back here. And having faith.
It's the same freaking tears that makes me think of you.
I came back a changed person. Hoping we could work out better.
We can be together again.
But it's just a total bull.
You .
You
Hurt
Me
Again.
But I still love you.

I just hate you. Leave me. Just leave. I just wish.
How I wish that it's only a dream. You and everything.

Bored out

I'm working.
Drop dead cuz too much pressure
Ugh.

We were talking and laughing
And i felt lonely a sec there. cuz i'm all alone.
She's a good fren of mine from my office just so you know. lol.

Life suck but you can't just sulk it all you want!
Grrr. be tough. just a few more days to go!! :D

Blah Blah Blah

Its just 10 more days and I'm freee!!
: D can't wait to go back to my hometown.
Misses my family way too much. And, especially Her. : )

Life kinda hectic but just 10 more days to go and that's dat.
Sigh. still need to make a decision though. Hate it right here.
But have to be here... ugh

I'm just a heart breaker
:D

Jean