September 28

My life is so messed up right now.
I don't wana get the hang of this.
But I have to.
Lost my best friend and friends that I thought they were real.
Trust wasn't should be in my dictionary. neither should hope be.
It's too vague that I can't even understand.

I will, sometime, to pull this through.
Pray hard.
My life is so full of drama which I can't even handle anymore.
Life, is too vague.
You're too good to be true. I would've know that.
Stay strong. And be strong. That's all it matters now.

Jean

Just leave

Bitches bitches bitches.
They fucked up ppl's life.
You want peace. I give it to you. take it and leave me alone!
I love you that's why I choose to let go now.
You want freedom? You have it now.
You said you'll feel pressure?
Bull.
Everything's changed now. It's always you that said everything. That makes every decision.
I hate you

Whatever now.
Just leave now.
I wished everything was back to how it was back then.
Everything was a lie.
Coming back was a lie.
I would've known that.
It was a mistake. Coming back here. And having faith.
It's the same freaking tears that makes me think of you.
I came back a changed person. Hoping we could work out better.
We can be together again.
But it's just a total bull.
You .
You
Hurt
Me
Again.
But I still love you.

I just hate you. Leave me. Just leave. I just wish.
How I wish that it's only a dream. You and everything.

Bored out

I'm working.
Drop dead cuz too much pressure
Ugh.

We were talking and laughing
And i felt lonely a sec there. cuz i'm all alone.
She's a good fren of mine from my office just so you know. lol.

Life suck but you can't just sulk it all you want!
Grrr. be tough. just a few more days to go!! :D

Blah Blah Blah

Its just 10 more days and I'm freee!!
: D can't wait to go back to my hometown.
Misses my family way too much. And, especially Her. : )

Life kinda hectic but just 10 more days to go and that's dat.
Sigh. still need to make a decision though. Hate it right here.
But have to be here... ugh

I'm just a heart breaker
:D

Jean