it never occurs to me this will be the end... i never felt anything like this before... i was happy... i was in-love... i was speechless... it was amazing... but its unexpected.... i just couldn't get it... i'm confuse... but there's one thing that no one else will know.. and will not know... including that special someone...it will be a secret... a secret to myself... he was hilarious, he was charming, he was gorgeous, he was everything... but it wont be enough... i remember those words, those promises... i never felt like this... the world doesn't seems to be revolving anymore... but i'll move on... i'll be okay... i'll be tougher... i just gotta face every tomoro without you by my side... how anxious i used to be even after we saw each other... i will always wait until the very first minute i step in my house den, i'll pick up my phone and rang his number... how anxious i used to be just to listen to his voice...baby...how much i missed you... this will be d very last time... d last time to write these stuff...it was once that i met him... a him that i never knew i could love someone like this... so amazingly... every breath i took... it feels scented... i ain't gonna cry now.... i used to be someone tough... but i'm not now... but i'll try....i'll try...because i know you would want me to... the pair of hands that wipe off my tears... those eyes that are so beautiful...how unique... you're always a part of me... a part of my life chapter... chapters and chapters that will go on forever... chapters that i never thought it would end...but i was wrong... i was happy to pass every seconds with you... but it was all those memories... those memories that make my eyes blur... those memories that i always smile to myself... i felt so sweet thinking about it and i still do now... every second of it... i'm weak... i do confess... but i'm tougher now... getting stronger every bit by bit now... getting stronger cuz i noe that u would want me to be tough.. tough to face tomoro... and day after tomoro... i wont rely now... no matter on who... it doesn't matter now... i know.. just someday... it'll take days, months and years to forget... but there's no harm trying ... no harm trying to forget.. u know what we both owned... that very special thing that only both of us have... or had...things are not clear now... the steps that i'll be taking from now on... and how i'm going to face tomoro... i wanted to share my love with you... your eyes... your eyes tell me how much you care... how much you love me... those eyes that i saw for the last time... it was really preety... those hands i touched before i leave... you know my weakness... you know how to take control of me... what i found in you... in us... it is the most and it will be the most beautifull memories we will ever have... no one can replace that... not even the slightest thing that can change those memories... you're the reason i dare myself to take every step ahead... take every risk to be with you... going against every obstacle that we would face... take every reason to be by your side... i'm selfish... love is selfish... u remember those songs... those songs that you used to sing to me and make me cry.. make me weep?...you'll just wipe off those tears.. and just smile to me.. the smile that tell me that everything will be okay... tells me that nothing will change our love.. your eyes just tell me that.. your smile... tells me that... the support that i always needed... is always there for me... you hugged me when things go wrong... you hugged me when you see me weep...those big bear hugs that i always craved for... those big bear hugs i will always have whenever we're dozing off... those big bear hugs when u sent me back home... those big bear hugs when its even nothing... those big bear hugs u gave when i used to make up in front of the mirror... and those big bear hugs tells me that it's okay.. its okay to be with you... it also tells me that i'll be happy...u'll take really good care of me... and it tells me that i'm the one whom u love so much... and it also tells me that u'll be der for me no matter what happened... i'm happy.. i'm happy in every way... this was different... but i know.. we still have a long way to go now...i couldn't wait... couldn't wait to celebrate the next anniversary with you... it was to be the most happiest moment.. the most unforgettable moment.... just let me cry now... cry out for one last time... then i'll be tough...i'll be tougher to face the world then... i wish i was blind... because then, u'll take my hand and lead the way for me... lead the way together... holding hands side by side until we're old... until our death beds.. 4 years.. 4 happy years... it was amazing... it amazes me... amuses me... how much i appreciate that... but hopes are gone now...vanished... i'm glad you're happy now.. i'm glad u think its over now... you have your freedom now... use it wisely... and be careful with the paths the you'll take because i'll not be there to support you now... we can live our lives on different paths now... i wish you luck in every way... every little luck that no matter what you do... and may my love and my luck to be with you from now on.... thanks for the memories... thanks for the love you gave me... take care now... and goodbye...
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